Mine is an evil laugh!

collection update...

2005-08-25T23:29:10Z

few more pics of shelves that have been organized...

ttfn,
r.-

evil dead diorama-rama

2005-08-15T00:20:07Z

pretty much done with the house, and about half way thru the interior...

and a little closer...

meanwhile, inside...

that's all for now,
r.-

pics of my collection

2005-07-21T02:03:49Z

felt like putting some pictures of my toy collection up for posterity's sake...

cheers-

can they actually do that?

2005-02-02T20:43:21Z

something about this just seems wrong...

http://www.mskcc.org/mskcc/html/54387.cfm

oh, good, i was afraid the love affair was over...

2005-02-02T20:32:16Z

now with extra cuteness

http://www.toymania.com/news/messages/6194.shtml

man this is just screwed up...

2005-01-31T16:32:47Z

if you're an unemployed woman in berlin, and you turn down a job as a prostitute, you lose your unemployment benefits. no joke.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?xml=/news/2005/01/30/wgerm30.xml

klarion @ 2005-01-13T13:52:00

2005-01-13T19:14:43Z

okay, so i barely post here anymore, and usually when i do it's some silly bit of pop culture or trivia.

today is not really all that different, but it is a little more heart felt.

i bought a new album today on itunes. it's called HAS BEEN, and it's by William Shatner. I'm sure most of you have heard and laughed at his renditions of Mr Tamborine Man and Lucy in the Sky.

forget them.

this is one of the most honest, funny, depressing, raw, and brave albums i have heard in a long time.

shatner doesn't go it alone this time. Ben Folds is helping to run the show, and several other friends lend their talents to a song. henry rollins, aimee man, brad paisley, and joe jackson all show up, and there's a truely beautiful song written by Nick Hornby (who wrote High Fidelity). arguably the best song tho is "what have you done" which is shatner's reaction to his wife's apparent suicide. really brutal and honest.

It's really something i recommend to all of you.

cheers,
mike

coolest new toy, much fun for to be had!

2004-12-09T21:33:27Z

http://www.mcphee.com/cubes/cubes.html

i must have these! i could build my own corporate hell! yes!!!

hint hint, xmas is upon us!

love,
me

yeah, but can he turn his skin into living steel?

2004-06-24T14:48:09Z

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=541&ncid=751&e=9&u=/ap/20040623/ap_on_he_me/mighty_muscle_gene

excelsior!
k.-

hey steph can you fire off an e-mail?

2004-06-24T14:40:58Z

OCD Productions is pleased to announce the long-awaited release of our 91 minute fan film Superman:Luthor for President.This film chronicles what happens when the Man of Steels greatest enemy becomes the absolute ruler of the free world.Starring Jason Bailey,Michael Walters and Enrique Arce.For a limited time,we will be giving away FREE DVD copies of the film.Supplies are limited and will be distributed on a first come,first serve basis.To receive a copy,please send your name and mailing address to luthor4prez@yahoo.com .For more information on this film and OCD Productions,please visit our website at

http://www.geocities.com/ocdproductions/SupermanLuthor4President.html

there you can view Actor Bios,Press Releases,Publicity Photos,and watch any of our previous trailers.

Joseph Owens
Head Publicist OCD Prod

this man is a god...

2004-05-20T20:17:10Z

http://andykaufmanreturns.blogspot.com/

this is like the best news ever...

k.-

well i'm living by myself now...

2004-05-17T17:46:11Z

at least that's how it felt this morning. i have vaugue recollections of steph getting up and trolling off to work, but not really.

my first real memories were of the alarm going off at eight. the second time it went off, i realized that, unlike steph, i don't need the alarm to go off every nine minutes for an hour to wake me up, so i reset it for nine and snoozed off...

i know ill see her tonight, and ive already talked to her on the phone, but its weird going most of the day without really seeing steph. i know that i shouldn't be complaining, after all steph is still there, just not in the mornings, but its like my whole life has changed somehow..

its just odd is all...

k.-

its all virginia's fault...

2004-05-03T16:58:53Z

lol not really,

steph and i went to the mall friday night because she's on a diet, which means i've lost weight, meaning that, since we had a first communion celebration to attend on saturday, i needed dress pants that would actually stay up.

once we entered the mall, i decided that, seeing as how i had just recommended that virginia read CONFEDERACY OF DUNCES, i myself should probably reread it again, as it has haunted my thoughts for the better part of a decade. rereading it, i hoped, would help exorcise some of the conflicted emotions i felt towards it.

so we went into the bookstore, and seeing as how i couldn't remember the name of the author (despite remembering that his mother had it published posthume after his suicide, and that it won a pulitzer), coinciding with the average american bookstore's penchant for "organizing" their wares alphabetically by author (instead of some useful meathod such as size or color) i proceded to the front counter for directional assistance.

after waiting for a few moments for the clerk to finish helping the wastrel who had arrived before me, i actually looked at the clerk who's assistance i was waiting for. immediately upon catching sight of this person i bolted. now to my credit, i bolted casually. but i bolted none the less. this confused the clerk who was just starting to ask how she could help me. this confused steph who thought i was just being absentminded and wandering off (a credit to me on both counts for the effective casuality of my bolt).

but they both conspired to bring me back. if it had just been the clerk, i could have played it off, acted like i never heard her. if it had just been steph, confused and trying to convince me to head back to the counter while the usually apathy of the american worker took control of the clerk, i could have made it away scott free. or if, istead of heading deeper into the store, my flight response had told me to leave the store outright...

but no, i didn't want to leave. i had waited for almost 10 years for this moment, i just didn't know it.

so i bucked up, turned around,and went back to the counter. i told the young woman what i needed, the name of the book, and she cooly moved over to the computer. as i followed, i whispered to steph the crucial bit of info that she never could have known.

"that's nicole"

by this point nicole must have recognized me; she looked up the info (toole was the author's last name) and passed me off to a cooworker and headed for the back room. it was artfully done really, steph didn't even realized what had happened, whispering to me we could just leave, but it was already over. nicole went into the back, and i went to my book. i sat down in the aisle and just sort of breathed for a moment.

what else could i have done? nicole didn't come out of the back before i bought my book and left. the moment was so small. her voice cut through me. i had forgotten it. i didn't know i had forgotten it. i didn't think i could. she hadn't changed much. she died her hair blonde, and while it didn't look bad, i didn't like it on her. she was still so obviously sweet inside. thank god the years hadn't robbed her of that. she was still smart too, and collected. how could i have not loved her?

i broke this woman when she was still a girl. i don't mean to give myself credit for being something im not, but i think its safe to say i broke her heart as best as it could be broken, and now, years later, she was just there.

i'm all mixed up inside. feelings of guilt and shame and bewilderment all swam thru my head all weekend. things i hadn't thought about wouldn't be quiet and just go back to the folds in the grey matter where they have been nestled for so long.

and that's where i hit a wall. i know better than to selfishly go back and try to confront her. (to what purpose? to apologize? to wish her well? to see if we could be friends?)

and where is she in all this? argry? sad? completely non-plussed?

ahhhhh, crap

k.-

mmmmm, McExercise...

2004-04-15T20:24:02Z

http://abclocal.go.com/ktrk/health/041504_APhealth_mcdonalds.html

what about a special prize for adults under the age of 30?

k.-

quite possibly the most important quiz you will ever take...

2004-03-25T01:46:18Z

thank god...

Find Out If You Are John Stamos!

doing the unstuck...

2004-03-24T17:21:10Z

the job posting is no longer listed @ palisades.com

that should mean they will be conducting the interview process soon.

also got my PS2 online last night, and started playing FFXI. i am such a geek. like, i was a geek before, with the toys and the comics and what not, but now i am playing an online roleplaying game.

i am such a geek.

meh, so steph and i have basically been ignoring the fact that we are trying to move for the last few nights. kinda in a holding pattern of crap. back to work tonight and thru the weekend...

ttfn,
k.-

p.s. someone in our building got evicted yesterday, and all of ther furniture and stuff was unceremoniously dumped around the dumpster. in classic dumpster diving technique, steph and i snagged a swang lounge chair for ourselves, which means we have yet another thing that needs to be moved this weekend, but saves us several hundred dollars we were planning on spending on just such a chair, so yay!

do or do not...

2004-03-11T20:39:20Z

so sort of as a compliment to steph newly redoubled dedication to exercising, i have given myself a daily reginment of drawing. i draw throughout the day at my desk @ work, and i draw at least a little each night before going to bed. it's fun, but it actually is hard work. i'm trying to make myself better. dave sim says that you have 10,000 bad drawings in you before your first good drawing. if i had been this dedicated to my art all of my life i'd be major kick ass good by now.

i'm not saying i'm bad. i can admit that i have talent, and that's a gift. but i'm a fool for having squandered it so long. i've always had a love of drawing, but like in most other things, i have a hard time convincing myself to focus.

it certainly is satisfying seeing a sketchbook fill up with a perceptable speed. lemme tell you, to me cracking open a brand new blank sketchbook is near a holy experience. especially if i earned it by filling another one first. (often times i get like 2/3rds of the way thru a sketchbook and will switch to a new one just to get that new sketchbook experience.)

also lets give it up to steph for her hard earned weight loss! go baby!

that's all for now,
k.-

i'm sorry, our cashiers do not have more than $30 in their register after 7pm...

2004-03-10T22:36:32Z

http://edition.cnn.com/2004/US/South/03/09/million.dollar.bill.ap/

now the real question is, did she know it wasn't real...

k.-

and the award for "best new show of last night" goes to...

2004-03-10T21:45:45Z

Cracking Up on fox. damn funny.

great cast rediculous premise, and whip smart writing.

the basic idea is that a grad student (jason schwartzman) is hired by a family to help them by being a live in psychiatrist for their son, who, they say, has been severly depressed since his dog died. or was put down. or shot. they can't seem to agree.

the first thing the young boy reveals to his "doctor" is that a.)he ain't the crazy one, and b.) his dog ain't dead. he lives in the closet of the guest house.

it just gets stranger from there.

it's on again tonight with a new episode @ 9:30. check it out...

k.-

tiptoe thru the tulips...

2004-03-04T16:42:33Z

so art is trying to live in my veins again.

many people, especially steph, have lamented over the last few years that i have not been creating art. i have been creating; custom figures, homemade maps, things of this nature, but nothing that wholly originates from me.

to be honest, while i missed making art, it didn't really bother me. my mind just wasn't in it, and my heart was still doing some kind of creative stuff.

so now it seems like my creative spirit is awakening from a slumber, reaching for the light and yearning to be allowed to run wild.

i have it isn't just a phase, because my creativity is like the soil of the rest of me, and it's about time i started nourishing my damn crops.

(was that ever a convoluted analogy)

ideas are coming to me with lightning speed. most get dismissed, but some get lodged in my crawl and won't be exorcised by anything but being made real.

heehee

:)
k.-

it's not over until WE say it is!!!

2004-03-01T17:27:24Z

after an impromptu party friday evening, and even more impromptu party saturday evening, there was the heavily premeditated party of all day sunday.

it's like college all over again.

cool time was had all weekend, with sunday being the highlight (the first two nights ended up being the warm up sprints as it were.) thank you to abby for hosting the superbowl of moving parties, in no small way aided by the exacerbated wierdness of her roommate's sister/next door neighbor being strewn around the front living area.

but anyone who is reading this probably already knows that.

just thought i should write something, as i get tired of seeing my journal page remain the same day after day...

k.-

THIS is how to get a movie made!!

2004-02-26T15:43:32Z

http://www.aintitcoolnews.com/display.cgi?id=17080

rodriguez is the man!

i wonder if depp will be in it. or cheech?

k.-

words fail me...

2004-02-12T19:31:03Z

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/4250262/

k.-

this is SOOOO hot!

2004-02-05T00:18:48Z

Your Life: The Movie by mintyduck
Who will play you:	Natalie Portman
Who will play your love interest:	Nicole Kidman
Weeks you will stay in the box office:	23
Song that will play during your love scene:	Echo and the Bunnymen - Lips Like Sugar
Song that will play during your death:	Scheer - Goodbye
Your name:

Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

my interview (courtesy of abby)...

2004-02-02T22:13:06Z

1) i honestly don't understand your collecting compulsion. can you explain your need to have more toys? to have complete sets of immobile plastic things?

I am what i call an "object obsessive."

I like stuff.

i like shapes and textures and pictures and all sortsa shit. i am drawn to stuff. especially stuff that's fun to pick up, arrange, and fiddle with. toys fit this bill incredibly well. my collection also feeds into the hunter/gatherer instinct i guess. going out in the early morn, or the wee hours of night, finding that new figure, or one that had been eluding me for weeks, VICTORY! it fills a compulsion.

and that's the real answer. it's a compulsion. to hunt. to shop. to find. to buy. to open. to arrange. to customize.

it also opens up a little niche community for me, people of like neurosis on the net with whom to talk and hang out.

toys also have a rich history and heritage. they are something that everyone i know can relate to in some way. you love the "eye babies" maybe not for the reason i made them, but you find them endlessly entertaining none the less.

2) you majored in photography, but i've never heard of you taking pictures. why did you major in photo, and have you lost interest or something?

short answer-i got burnt out.

long answer, i stopped actually using a camera after my freshman year. i worked with found negatives, i used copiers and enlargers, i worked in computers, i composeted other people's stuff. for me photography has very little to do with cameras. so that's why you don't see me using a camera much. as for the other suff, it was alot easier when i was in college and had access to all of the supplies and equipment in an environment that someone else maintained.

3) why have you stayed at comcast so long?

benefits. i am one sick bastard, and i need benefits to pay for my meds. at least that is the fear that my mother has instilled in me, and it's kept me slave to this job for so long. also my dad beats into me that you just HAVE a job. it's not something you're supposed to like. he spent almost all of his life working for Bethlehem Steel at the cost of his hearing and health, working shitty hours so i barely saw him with any regularity when i was growing up, and now has been forced to retire early and then had his pension cut drastically. so i guess that worked out well for him, huh?

yeah, i'm starting to come to grips with the idea that 80-90% of everything my parents told me was either flat out wrong, or badly skewed.

also, i don't know what else i'd do...

save for that dream job thing.

i don't really want to jump from one lowest common denominator job to another. i'd like to find something i actively like.

4) do you draw a distinction between the differences of opinion you have with your parents and your sister? do you have any kind of filial relationship with her, or do you group her in with your parents?

yes. actually i draw a line between all three. my mom is a manipulative, unfair bitch who abused me. my dad was pretty okay really. looking back now, he did a pretty good job and sacrificed alot for us. he still pisses me off by not listening to me, but that's just typical father/son bs. Laura is a whiney, immature girl. she's an alright shit and all, but she's been so sheltered and spoiled that she has no idea what the real world is like. my mother spent our youths poisining her against me, as i was "weird." now she sees me as a rival of sorts.

5)what is the coolest thing you've done that i haven't heard about?

hmmm. i had a $2,000 price on my head by age 13. i was hanging out with my friends ray (yes this is ray shaw) and jessica in the woods near her house. we were being little firebugs, and ray was showing us the "proper" way to build a fire. meanwhile jessica and i were just setting shit on fire. apparently one of the little blazes we set didn't quite go out and rekindled after we left. we never knew anything about it. no one was hurt or anything, but i found out several years later when i started dating a girl who lived in that area that the police had been going door to door offering a reward for any info leading to the culprits. the woods, you'll be glad to know is fine.